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‫I didn't say a break
‫I said time out

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‫They're very different things

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‫Prenuptial agreements are standard
‫practice I know what it is

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‫Did your father
‫put you up to this

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‫Would you do me the honour of being
‫my wife Because of her Julia

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‫Maybe it was a dream
‫Or maybe I got it wrong

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‫And I didn't see my dad beat my
‫mum and then try to kill himself

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‫I want us to elope

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‫Our wedding is in two days

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‫There's something that
‫you're not saying

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‫And I'm not an idiot

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‫This is Benjamin

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‫Who's he to you

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‫Um I'm marrying him tomorrow

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‫After what he did

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‫I'm not who I say am

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‫But then who is

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‫We all wear our masks

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‫Hide our darkness

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‫Our pain

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‫We all want to be
‫someone we're not

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‫But where's the harm in that

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‫Of course I wish you were here

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‫Of course I do but

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‫And none of it's easy and it's made
‫a shitload harder by you calling me

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‫half-cut when I'm with my wife

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‫Please

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‫Julia

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‫Mum are you in there

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‫Just one sec

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‫What happened to you yesterday

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‫Mum

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‫What is it What's wrong

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‫Nothing Nothing's wrong

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‫What was with the radio
‫silence then

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‫I called like
‫six times after we spoke kept

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‫going to voicemail

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‫My phone died
‫I didn't mean to worry you darling

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‫I just had some last-minute
‫stuff to deal with

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‫Well that is what Patrick
‫and I are here for

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‫Your job is a very simple one

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‫Enjoyment

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‫Now get showering

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‫You old fool

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‫It's too much

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‫I figured if ever there
‫was a time for sentiment

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‫it's now but you have
‫to promise not to laugh

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‫No I won't

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‫If I see even the hint of a smirk
‫then the drawbridge is coming up

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‫I can't imagine how
‫lonely it's been

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‫Having no-one on your
‫side about Benjamin

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‫But you have just stuck to your
‫guns in the most brilliant way

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‫So in the spirit of
‫channelling you

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‫I've asked Emily to come today

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‫As my

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‫I hope that's ok

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‫Of course darling

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‫You just have to be happy

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‫Just

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‫Just makes sure that
‫she's a good one

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‫She is
‫It's me you have to worry about

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‫I do

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‫But maybe

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‫Maybe I don't need to any more

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‫I guess we'd better get this
‫bridal shit on the road

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‫This is hard for me to say

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‫It's ok

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‫I know already

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‫I've known ever since you
‫Since you first told me

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‫that you wouldn't do it

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‫You couldn't do it - marry him

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‫Because it's us isn't it

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‫It's always

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‫Been us

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‫Despite everything

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‫We love each other Ted I

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‫I had my revenge and now you
with all ‫this younger man

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‫flaunting him in my face bringing him
‫Back to our house

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‫You've had yours

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‫Now we're even

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‫So we can

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‫We can start again

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‫You and me

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‫Your revenge for what
‫Well for you leaving me

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‫I never left you

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‫Maybe not physically
‫but you withdrew

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‫So it's my fault No

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‫All that matters is - it's
‫done with and we can get back

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‫to how we were

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‫What's wrong with you

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‫What's the phrase

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‫The past is a foreign country
‫Only for us it's two

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‫wildly different countries

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‫Truth is that ‫and it's hard to
admit but I am as guilty

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‫as you For burying it

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‫for not speaking up for

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‫My silence has
‫corroded everything

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‫Now I'm being punished

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‫What are you talking about

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‫How we were

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‫That's what I'm talking about

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‫What you did to me

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‫Your violence

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‫We've never talked about it

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‫I can't do this

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‫I need to now

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‫I need to know why

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‫And that's what I came to
‫say or to ask not

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‫The moment just before

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‫That's the bit that I'm really
‫interested in when you go from not

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‫doing and holding yourself
‫back to doing

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‫I need to understand
‫that moment

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‫Why

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‫Because I have to know if that ever
‫leaves you the urge or if a person

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‫can make a mistake and then

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‫Change

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‫So all this You

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‫calling me here

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‫It was never about us

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‫It was always about him

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‫There is no "us" Ted

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‫I need this one thing from you

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‫You owe me this one thing

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‫I don't owe you anything

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‫You ruined my life

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‫And worse than that
‫Our children's lives Don't don't you

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‫bring our children into this

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‫I didn't You did
‫when you hit me in front of them

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‫Once They saw only once And what
‫That makes all the other times ok

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‫The children are fine

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‫The kids are not fine

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‫And that is largely due to you

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‫Everyone has their regrets

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‫Things that give them
‫sleepless nights

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‫Mine is that I didn't
‫leave you that night

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‫That I didn't take those kids and
‫get them far far away from you

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‫You'd never have left me

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‫I was already packed
‫and then you

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‫You made it so that I couldn't
‫God if I had my time again

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‫I'd have left you in there

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‫God

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‫Looks like you gave me
‫your answer after all

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‫Julia I'm so glad

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‫I-I started to worry

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‫Not hearing anything
‫and I know we're meant to be abiding by

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‫tradition and everything but I just
‫I miss you and er

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‫I can't wait to marry you

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‫Julia

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‫It's over

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‫She went outside I told her not
‫I told her not

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‫to go outside It's fine

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‫Come with me darling

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‫I don't know what's happened
‫I don't know what's been said to you

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‫I can only imagine that
‫it was one of your sons

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‫But whatever it is
‫we can sort it out

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‫I know that we can

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‫So please please just call me back
‫and tell me where you are look

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‫I can hear you you know

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‫Julia's here isn't she Hi

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‫What I need to speak to her
‫I need to speak to her

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‫Julia Erm Julia

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‫Julia It's me
‫What is going on

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‫Julia I just
‫I really need to speak to Julia

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‫Ok She's not here though

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‫Everything ok mum

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‫Just give us a sec Ok

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‫Sorry

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‫What about Ted
‫What about Ted Is he here

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‫Would you just tell me if
‫he's here or not please

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‫No No Edward is not here and i'm
‫not sure I appreciate the implication

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‫Are you going to tell me what's
‫going on or do I have to guess

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‫It's I really don't know

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‫Julia is not the type
‫to get cold feet

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‫I dunno what I've done

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‫Maybe you haven't
done anything

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‫The day I was getting
‫married to Clayton

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‫there was just so much noise
‫so many people all with opinions

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‫I just took myself off

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‫Not long enough for anyone to
‫notice but just long enough

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‫to to remember
‫why I was doing it

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‫Yeah

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‫Thank you

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‫Thank you

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‫Just just find her

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‫I've been staring at
‫that picture of you

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‫So young so serious

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‫As if as if I'm expecting
‫not to recognise you

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‫For there have been
‫some kind of mistake

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‫Because the Benjamin I
‫know he would never

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‫He could never do this

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‫I thought you were the person
‫that would make up for all those

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‫wasted years

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‫But everything
you are is a lie

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‫which I'm now realising
‫means everything

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‫we've had is the same

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‫I thought I'd feel
‫better when I wrote this

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‫and I would have
‫a moment of peace

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‫But there is no
‫peace for me now

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‫I really thought that you
‫your letter

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‫Don't you
‫don't you ever do that again

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‫You

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‫You scared me

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‫I scared you

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‫I thought I could
‫leave this time

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‫But I can't

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‫Can't leave can't stay

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‫So here I am

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‫Can you at least look at me

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‫What happened
‫Can you not touch me

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‫Who did that

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‫Does it matter

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‫Ted

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‫Ted

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‫But he

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‫Why

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‫Force of habit

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‫Well why didn't you tell me

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‫I don't

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‫Tell people

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‫I made myself a
promise after

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‫That I would never be
‫with a violent man again

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‫I can fix this Julia
‫if you if you let me

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‫I can fix it I

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‫What So it's just

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‫Ii don't even get
‫a conversation

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‫I can't think what you
‫would possibly say

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‫Because
‫because you've made your mind up

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‫No the facts made my mind up

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‫Facts
‫Facts that you went looking for

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‫You wanted to find a
‫reason not to marry me

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‫You think
‫you think that I've broken your trust

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‫Well the truth is

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‫You've broken mine too

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‫Don't need it now

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‫You can't just give up on me

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‫Or you'll what

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‫Kill me

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‫Do you know the really sad
‫thing Benjamin

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‫The sad thing is that if you had told
‫me I might have been able

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‫to get past it seen it as the
‫actions of a terrified boy

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‫who just didn't know what his punch would
‫mean and the lives that it would ruin

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‫I wanted to tell you

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‫I wanted to tell
you everything

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‫You have no idea how much
‫Instead of a real person

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‫I got a construct

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‫You erased your past

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‫Your brother

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‫Your name Don't you think that
‫I know that Don't you think

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‫that I have been terrified every
‫every single day since we met

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‫that you would find me out

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‫I am so tired

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‫Me too

253
00:25:41,520 --> 00:25:43,816
‫I need you to do one thing for
‫me I need you to come with me

254
00:25:43,840 --> 00:25:46,256
‫I will explain

255
00:25:46,280 --> 00:25:48,680
‫I will explain I promise you

256
00:25:51,400 --> 00:25:56,560
‫But I need you to give me one
‫chance at making you understand

257
00:26:09,480 --> 00:26:12,696
‫My life wasn't

258
00:26:12,720 --> 00:26:14,776
‫It hasn't been like
‫your kids' lives

259
00:26:14,800 --> 00:26:17,536
‫My mum she was all
‫Hard edges

260
00:26:17,560 --> 00:26:20,536
‫I used to think it was the drugs
‫Bending her out of shape

261
00:26:20,560 --> 00:26:24,696
‫But in the end I really think
‫that it was just her making wrong

262
00:26:24,720 --> 00:26:28,216
‫decisions ones that we
‫had to live with you know

263
00:26:28,240 --> 00:26:31,480
‫No dad for Kieran and a
‫A useless one for me

264
00:26:35,880 --> 00:26:39,656
‫And when she died
‫Kieran tried so hard to pretend

265
00:26:39,680 --> 00:26:41,096
‫that everything was normal

266
00:26:41,120 --> 00:26:44,240
‫Never letting on to
‫anyone that we were alone

267
00:26:48,120 --> 00:26:51,296
‫And all of that
‫it had to be paid for

268
00:26:51,320 --> 00:26:55,200
‫And that became hard
‫in a way that you could never understand

269
00:26:59,280 --> 00:27:02,136
‫He said all we
‫needed was 50 quid

270
00:27:02,160 --> 00:27:05,016
‫50 quid and we would be ok
for the ‫month he asked me

271
00:27:05,040 --> 00:27:06,896
‫to be lookout

272
00:27:06,920 --> 00:27:08,480
‫So I stood there

273
00:27:10,560 --> 00:27:13,000
‫I stood there till I heard

274
00:27:16,560 --> 00:27:19,800
‫And there's this man lying
‫there blood just

275
00:27:25,160 --> 00:27:29,416
‫Are you
‫Are you saying it was Kieran

276
00:27:29,440 --> 00:27:31,280
‫I'm not I'm not s-saying

277
00:27:34,040 --> 00:27:38,096
‫Then why should I believe you
‫You really think that I am capable

278
00:27:38,120 --> 00:27:40,056
‫of killing another person

279
00:27:40,080 --> 00:27:41,560
‫I didn't

280
00:27:43,520 --> 00:27:44,960
‫But now

281
00:27:49,120 --> 00:27:50,200
‫Yeah

282
00:27:52,240 --> 00:27:53,520
‫I do

283
00:28:08,280 --> 00:28:12,560
‫Why do I get the feeling
‫this is bad news Come in

284
00:28:27,120 --> 00:28:28,760
‫I'm really sorry

285
00:28:30,760 --> 00:28:32,160
‫I had to

286
00:28:34,120 --> 00:28:35,520
‫I told her

287
00:28:38,840 --> 00:28:42,320
‫And now I need you to tell her
‫too so that she believes me

288
00:28:44,560 --> 00:28:46,000
‫Please

289
00:28:47,600 --> 00:28:49,640
‫You told her Told her what

290
00:28:50,720 --> 00:28:52,000
‫I did say

291
00:28:53,240 --> 00:28:55,616
‫I said that you didn't mean to

292
00:28:55,640 --> 00:28:57,120
‫Still

293
00:29:00,120 --> 00:29:01,760
‫A man died

294
00:29:12,040 --> 00:29:13,640
‫I'm sorry

295
00:29:16,040 --> 00:29:18,320
‫But you know what you did

296
00:29:23,400 --> 00:29:26,576
‫I mean it was an accident
‫He didn't mean to do it

297
00:29:26,600 --> 00:29:28,640
‫He's a good man my brother

298
00:29:30,920 --> 00:29:32,976
‫You can't you can't do this

299
00:29:33,000 --> 00:29:34,296
‫You can't ruin my life again

300
00:29:34,320 --> 00:29:36,136
‫You tell her it was you

301
00:29:36,160 --> 00:29:38,616
‫I wish that I could

302
00:29:38,640 --> 00:29:40,480
‫You fucking tell
her it was you

303
00:29:49,680 --> 00:29:53,616
‫He's lying I promise
‫you he's lying

304
00:29:53,640 --> 00:29:55,160
‫Kieran

305
00:29:57,840 --> 00:30:00,376
‫Please Please Kieran
‫I'm begging you

306
00:30:00,400 --> 00:30:03,056
‫You tell her You tell her
‫what really happened Please

307
00:30:03,080 --> 00:30:05,440
‫Don't you think she's
‫been lied to enough Sean

308
00:30:15,520 --> 00:30:20,936
‫Hey hey come here
‫Cut it out it's ok

309
00:30:20,960 --> 00:30:23,656
‫You've no idea how
‫much I've missed you

310
00:30:23,680 --> 00:30:27,176
‫You've no idea how much
‫I've missed my big brother

311
00:30:27,200 --> 00:30:29,216
‫I've missed you too

312
00:30:29,240 --> 00:30:31,376
‫Then why are you trying

313
00:30:31,400 --> 00:30:34,136
‫To make it so it's
‫all for nothing

314
00:30:34,160 --> 00:30:36,416
‫Because you ruined it

315
00:30:36,440 --> 00:30:38,216
‫We swore on mum's life

316
00:30:38,240 --> 00:30:41,976
‫We swore that we
‫wouldn't talk about it

317
00:30:42,000 --> 00:30:44,536
‫I can't lose her

318
00:30:44,560 --> 00:30:47,976
‫What about me What about me

319
00:30:48,000 --> 00:30:49,640
‫I fucking love you

320
00:30:50,960 --> 00:30:53,056
‫You don't

321
00:30:53,080 --> 00:30:57,080
‫Cos if you did
‫you would tell the truth

322
00:31:09,680 --> 00:31:11,240
‫I only hit him once

323
00:31:13,840 --> 00:31:15,896
‫I'm sorry

324
00:31:15,920 --> 00:31:19,056
‫I'm I'm s

325
00:31:19,080 --> 00:31:21,200
‫I'm so sorry I'm so sorry

326
00:31:34,920 --> 00:31:36,480
‫You let him take the blame

327
00:31:38,920 --> 00:31:40,120
‫Your own brother

328
00:31:43,120 --> 00:31:46,400
‫Benjamin I want to go
‫No don't go please

329
00:31:48,720 --> 00:31:51,296
‫Do you want to know why
‫he's with you love

330
00:31:51,320 --> 00:31:55,616
‫It's because you give them all
‫the things that he never had -

331
00:31:55,640 --> 00:31:57,040
‫money status

332
00:31:59,240 --> 00:32:01,200
‫And a mother who loved him

333
00:32:08,040 --> 00:32:13,056
‫I know what's coming for you brother
‫even if you're too blind to see it

334
00:32:13,080 --> 00:32:18,736
‫You're going to be stuck in a
‫world that you don't belong

335
00:32:18,760 --> 00:32:21,440
‫With a family who will
‫never accept you

336
00:32:22,640 --> 00:32:24,680
‫And a pensioner for a wife

337
00:32:44,360 --> 00:32:46,200
‫I still don't understand

338
00:32:49,280 --> 00:32:51,000
‫Why take the blame

339
00:32:54,520 --> 00:32:56,920
‫He was 21 I was 15

340
00:33:00,280 --> 00:33:03,080
‫Young offenders'
‫didn't sound so bad

341
00:33:04,800 --> 00:33:06,400
‫But it's your whole life

342
00:33:14,280 --> 00:33:16,840
‫Have you ever had a
‫moment where it's just

343
00:33:18,120 --> 00:33:20,936
‫A moment so far beyond
‫what you imagined

344
00:33:20,960 --> 00:33:23,280
‫That you're just you're

345
00:33:24,760 --> 00:33:26,376
‫You're outside of yourself

346
00:33:26,400 --> 00:33:27,840
‫Just

347
00:33:29,240 --> 00:33:30,760
‫Just doing

348
00:33:36,520 --> 00:33:38,040
‫I thought that

349
00:33:43,360 --> 00:33:46,256
‫I really thought that
‫I was saving him

350
00:33:46,280 --> 00:33:49,680
‫That's what kept me
‫going in that place

351
00:33:52,840 --> 00:33:57,000
‫I thought that he was out there
‫making a life for himself

352
00:33:59,840 --> 00:34:01,560
‫Then I got out found him

353
00:34:04,600 --> 00:34:06,560
‫He'd ended up just
‫like my mum

354
00:34:10,000 --> 00:34:11,640
‫It had all been for nothing

355
00:34:14,520 --> 00:34:16,080
‫I had to leave

356
00:34:18,160 --> 00:34:22,416
‫I couldn't be Sean white any
‫more Sean Sean white the boy

357
00:34:22,440 --> 00:34:24,640
‫who killed the shopkeeper

358
00:34:30,480 --> 00:34:32,280
‫I needed a second chance

359
00:34:37,080 --> 00:34:39,120
‫You're my second chance

360
00:34:41,800 --> 00:34:43,400
‫I just want to go home

361
00:34:58,720 --> 00:35:02,136
‫Mum Where have you been
‫Christ I was worried properly worried

362
00:35:02,160 --> 00:35:05,536
‫How's about we give your mother
‫some oxygen On her wedding day

363
00:35:05,560 --> 00:35:08,256
‫I think we're entitled
‫to feel concerned

364
00:35:08,280 --> 00:35:09,536
‫What's going on mum

365
00:35:09,560 --> 00:35:11,416
‫I just need to be on my own

366
00:35:11,440 --> 00:35:13,240
‫I'll see you at the church

367
00:36:28,000 --> 00:36:29,456
‫Hi guys

368
00:36:29,480 --> 00:36:31,296
‫You look great

369
00:36:31,320 --> 00:36:32,800
‫See you in a bit

370
00:37:10,040 --> 00:37:12,976
‫How much longer would
‫you like to wait

371
00:37:13,000 --> 00:37:14,736
‫As long as it takes

372
00:37:14,760 --> 00:37:16,296
‫We only have the
‫church until four

373
00:37:16,320 --> 00:37:17,880
‫She's coming

374
00:37:41,480 --> 00:37:43,736
‫Julia

375
00:37:43,760 --> 00:37:46,416
‫I think we can all agree
‫minimum fuss is desirable

376
00:37:46,440 --> 00:37:47,816
‫No-one wants a scene

377
00:37:47,840 --> 00:37:49,016
‫Least of all mum

378
00:37:49,040 --> 00:37:53,176
‫This er should get you a taxi out
‫of here Patrick don't be crass

379
00:37:53,200 --> 00:37:55,976
‫I thought I was being
‫rather generous

380
00:37:56,000 --> 00:37:58,456
‫Could you all
‫could you just give us a moment alone

381
00:37:58,480 --> 00:38:00,936
‫We should stay mum
‫in case things get well ugly

382
00:38:00,960 --> 00:38:03,176
‫What is it that you
‫think is happening

383
00:38:03,200 --> 00:38:05,576
‫You're calling off the wedding
‫Finally seeing the light

384
00:38:05,600 --> 00:38:07,896
‫Could you just let me
‫speak with Benjamin

385
00:38:07,920 --> 00:38:10,496
‫Mum really we should stay
‫I'm not going anywhere

386
00:38:10,520 --> 00:38:14,000
‫Do either of you ever listen
‫She's asked us to go so we go

387
00:38:20,800 --> 00:38:23,896
‫Marriage isn't something you
‫should go into with any doubts

388
00:38:23,920 --> 00:38:25,640
‫It's for life

389
00:38:27,280 --> 00:38:28,840
‫You are many things

390
00:38:31,080 --> 00:38:34,080
‫The one thing I never thought you
‫were is a hypocrite

391
00:38:55,640 --> 00:39:00,440
‫I know it probably doesn't hold
‫much weight any more but

392
00:39:02,840 --> 00:39:04,680
‫For what it's worth i'm

393
00:39:06,720 --> 00:39:08,600
‫I'm so so sorry

394
00:39:14,880 --> 00:39:16,200
‫I know

395
00:39:21,400 --> 00:39:22,840
‫I am too

396
00:39:25,640 --> 00:39:27,776
‫You you've got nothing
‫to be sorry for

397
00:39:27,800 --> 00:39:29,280
‫I let you hide

398
00:39:31,120 --> 00:39:36,416
‫Because it suited me
‫I just swallowed you up into all of my

399
00:39:36,440 --> 00:39:41,440
‫drama everything
everything was about ‫me my kids my past

400
00:39:46,120 --> 00:39:48,440
‫I didn't leave
any room for you

401
00:39:55,480 --> 00:39:57,040
‫That's it

402
00:39:59,320 --> 00:40:01,800
‫That's that's it

403
00:40:06,040 --> 00:40:07,640
‫Benjamin

404
00:40:12,360 --> 00:40:14,200
‫I don't want my old life

405
00:40:18,000 --> 00:40:20,320
‫The one without you in it

406
00:40:39,320 --> 00:40:41,936
‫I'm thinking that maybe
‫we skip the bit about

407
00:40:41,960 --> 00:40:44,520
‫Any objections

408
00:40:51,240 --> 00:40:54,016
‫Love you so bad by Ezra furman

409
00:42:22,640 --> 00:42:25,696
‫I know you told my mother
‫If you tell eimear I swear

410
00:42:25,720 --> 00:42:27,800
‫I will kill you

411
00:42:42,840 --> 00:42:44,680
‫Must be exhausting

412
00:42:47,240 --> 00:42:51,616
‫Spending all this time fighting
‫to be something that you're not

413
00:42:51,640 --> 00:42:53,536
‫You don't know
‫anything about me

414
00:42:53,560 --> 00:42:55,400
‫Good son good father

415
00:42:58,240 --> 00:43:00,656
‫Good husband
‫Shut up shut the Fuck up

416
00:43:00,680 --> 00:43:02,160
‫I didn't write this

417
00:43:03,720 --> 00:43:05,616
‫I didn't know

418
00:43:05,640 --> 00:43:07,320
‫But now I do

419
00:43:13,040 --> 00:43:14,640
‫Are you

420
00:43:17,520 --> 00:43:19,560
‫I can't lose my wife

421
00:43:20,720 --> 00:43:24,240
‫My children
‫Then you won't have to

422
00:43:26,120 --> 00:43:28,040
‫So long as you
‫stay out of my way

423
00:43:45,840 --> 00:43:48,160
‫The first time
‫that I met Julia

424
00:43:50,640 --> 00:43:52,856
‫I wanted to look after her

425
00:43:52,880 --> 00:43:55,000
‫Like
‫I can't really explain that

426
00:43:56,400 --> 00:43:58,256
‫It was just

427
00:43:58,280 --> 00:44:01,800
‫Instinct and a pretty
inconvenient ‫one at that

428
00:44:03,600 --> 00:44:06,840
‫And then I realised that she
‫wanted to look after me too

429
00:44:09,080 --> 00:44:11,320
‫I felt exposed

430
00:44:15,560 --> 00:44:18,736
‫And there never did seem to be an
‫option to run away which there

431
00:44:18,760 --> 00:44:20,440
‫always had been before

432
00:44:22,440 --> 00:44:24,856
‫I know
‫to a lot of people in this room

433
00:44:24,880 --> 00:44:26,536
‫we don't make much sense

434
00:44:26,560 --> 00:44:29,960
‫And when I ask why
‫it comes down to one thing

435
00:44:32,400 --> 00:44:33,920
‫Our age

436
00:44:35,280 --> 00:44:37,016
‫This

437
00:44:37,040 --> 00:44:41,480
‫Seemingly yawning chasm of
‫years that separates us

438
00:44:45,400 --> 00:44:47,240
‫My answer to that -

439
00:44:49,840 --> 00:44:56,040
‫nothing can make everything else
‫seem more irrelevant than love

440
00:44:58,040 --> 00:44:59,640
‫Hear hear

441
00:45:03,880 --> 00:45:05,360
‫And as for me

442
00:45:09,160 --> 00:45:11,936
‫Nobody knows who I am

443
00:45:11,960 --> 00:45:13,560
‫What I've done

444
00:45:15,600 --> 00:45:19,720
‫All the different faces
‫That I've set to the world

445
00:45:21,400 --> 00:45:24,256
‫To be 100% known
‫is a rare thing

446
00:45:24,280 --> 00:45:27,296
‫I don't think many
‫people ever are

447
00:45:27,320 --> 00:45:29,040
‫I am - now

448
00:45:31,280 --> 00:45:33,360
‫I find that terrifying

449
00:45:35,080 --> 00:45:41,336
‫But it is also the best thing
‫that has ever happened to me

450
00:45:41,360 --> 00:45:44,936
‫And that's how I know
‫I know that despite everything

451
00:45:44,960 --> 00:45:46,840
‫me and you

452
00:45:49,760 --> 00:45:51,920
‫We're going to be ok

453
00:46:08,680 --> 00:46:12,856
‫You want it Um

454
00:46:12,880 --> 00:46:16,416
‫I know it's not tradition
‫for the bride to speak

455
00:46:16,440 --> 00:46:17,800
‫Um

456
00:46:18,880 --> 00:46:20,696
‫Come here

457
00:46:20,720 --> 00:46:24,336
‫And I'd never
have dared before

458
00:46:24,360 --> 00:46:28,736
‫And i think that's
‫the key word here

459
00:46:28,760 --> 00:46:31,280
‫Before Erm

460
00:46:33,240 --> 00:46:37,016
‫Most of you know that this
‫is my second marriage

461
00:46:37,040 --> 00:46:41,240
‫My first marriage
‫gave me my children

462
00:46:42,720 --> 00:46:46,160
‫Who have been in the very
‫best thing in my life

463
00:46:48,600 --> 00:46:53,720
‫And this this is my after

464
00:46:56,200 --> 00:46:58,160
‫And I'm not letting it go

465
00:47:01,840 --> 00:47:04,376
‫Slow disco by st Vincent

466
00:47:44,720 --> 00:47:48,160
‫99 red balloons by nena

467
00:48:16,360 --> 00:48:18,016
‫What are you doing

468
00:48:18,040 --> 00:48:22,016
‫I was invited if you remember
‫I want you to leave right now

469
00:48:22,040 --> 00:48:23,456
‫How rude

470
00:48:23,480 --> 00:48:26,856
‫And I bought a present and everything
‫Look whatever this is

471
00:48:26,880 --> 00:48:28,296
‫let's just not shall we

472
00:48:28,320 --> 00:48:31,240
‫I want to talk to
‫Julia not you

473
00:48:32,560 --> 00:48:34,856
‫There it is

474
00:48:34,880 --> 00:48:38,616
‫Don't embarrass yourself
‫You mean don't embarrass you mother

475
00:48:38,640 --> 00:48:40,816
‫Don't worry I don't plan to

476
00:48:40,840 --> 00:48:42,136
‫Please don't do this

477
00:48:42,160 --> 00:48:43,960
‫You need to go - right now

478
00:48:46,000 --> 00:48:50,576
‫I don't want to put a damper on
‫things but I thought

479
00:48:50,600 --> 00:48:52,576
‫you ought to know

480
00:48:52,600 --> 00:48:54,880
‫Julia kissed me

481
00:48:56,320 --> 00:48:59,160
‫At Christmas she kissed me

482
00:49:05,040 --> 00:49:07,216
‫That's what you think happened

483
00:49:07,240 --> 00:49:09,056
‫You did what you always do

484
00:49:09,080 --> 00:49:11,240
‫You wanted something
‫and took it

485
00:49:20,800 --> 00:49:22,200
‫I'd like you to go

486
00:49:24,080 --> 00:49:25,600
‫You heard her

487
00:49:28,680 --> 00:49:33,656
‫You can't take everything
‫Them

488
00:49:33,680 --> 00:49:36,720
‫And you I went years ago

489
00:49:40,520 --> 00:49:43,976
‫Don't you
‫don't you walk away from me again

490
00:49:44,000 --> 00:49:46,016
‫Julia

491
00:49:46,040 --> 00:49:47,696
‫Julia

492
00:49:47,720 --> 00:49:50,296
‫You fucking come back here
‫now Julia

493
00:49:50,320 --> 00:49:52,760
‫Please just calm down
‫For god's sake please Please

494
00:49:56,320 --> 00:49:59,400
‫I don't think we'll be
needing ‫these do you

495
00:50:02,160 --> 00:50:03,680
‫I'm not you

496
00:50:05,000 --> 00:50:06,520
‫I'll never be you

497
00:50:09,840 --> 00:50:12,216
‫Darling I

498
00:50:12,240 --> 00:50:13,920
‫Della

499
00:50:22,320 --> 00:50:24,520
‫Leo Lad

500
00:50:26,880 --> 00:50:28,080
‫Who are you

501
00:50:44,400 --> 00:50:46,680
‫Time to go home I think

502
00:50:51,000 --> 00:50:52,800
‫What do you want with her

503
00:50:54,320 --> 00:50:56,480
‫What do you want with my wife

504
00:50:58,640 --> 00:51:00,120
‫My wife

505
00:51:02,000 --> 00:51:06,080
‫And I don't want anything
‫other than to love her

506
00:51:07,160 --> 00:51:08,520
‫Treat her right

507
00:51:10,080 --> 00:51:12,600
‫All of the things
‫you failed to do

508
00:51:13,960 --> 00:51:18,320
‫You don't know anything about us
‫I know what you did to her

509
00:51:20,600 --> 00:51:24,616
‫And if you don't
‫leave right now

510
00:51:24,640 --> 00:51:27,496
‫I will make sure
‫that everybody knows

511
00:51:27,520 --> 00:51:29,880
‫what kind of man
you really are

512
00:52:12,600 --> 00:52:14,736
‫You ok

513
00:52:14,760 --> 00:52:16,160
‫Yeah

514
00:52:17,600 --> 00:52:19,280
‫I am actually

515
00:52:20,480 --> 00:52:22,496
‫He's gone

516
00:52:22,520 --> 00:52:24,216
‫Good

517
00:52:24,240 --> 00:52:26,440
‫Take on me by a-ha

518
00:52:30,080 --> 00:52:32,920
‫would you like to
‫dance mr Greene

519
00:52:34,520 --> 00:52:36,560
‫Always